I have always a person of passions:
I have always had an obsessive passion for food; not just normal amounts, but excessive quantities. I am striving to change that. I know I will always enjoy food, but I need to learn moderation. This goes against my nature.
When I was young, I had a passion for competitive pool; also I became obsessive, at great cost. I still enjoy playing pool. I no longer gamble at it. I am not so intensely competitive about it. Though when I have an opportunity to play in a tournament, I can still unleash the beast.
In my teens, I developed, through hard work, a passion for music. I became an above-average guitarist, and taught myself to sing (which did not come naturally to me). I no longer live the lifestyle of a typical musician. I still play and sing sometimes, as much as my arthritic hands will allow me. I love to teach guitar now; to pass on my knowledge, and hopefully inspire creativity in others.
In my early 20’s, I received Jesus Christ as my Savior, and have over the years walked with Him, and unfortunately, sometimes away from Him. My passion for my King burns powerfully in me… and then sometimes I lose focus. I have a passion to serve Jesus through song, writing, teaching, and preaching the Word of God. But sometimes I get discouraged, and my strength fails me.
I have always been a writer. From about age 6, I have always written (as a hobby). I’ve written MANY songs, poems, stories, books, teachings, articles, blogs, humor sketches, and etc. It is THE calling on my life. It is my dream. It is my vision. It is my ever-present passion. Unfortunately, my full-time job (which I enjoy and I’m thankful to have) drains so much of my energy, I have, of late, not been writing.
I was recently researching opportunities to write online content for pay. It’s something I have done before, and I could definitely use the additional income; especially doing something I love.
I received wise counsel from my wife: “Have you been writing everyday?” she asked. Honestly, not nearly enough. She then suggested that it would be setting myself up for failure to take on daily writing assignments when I have not already been exercising the discipline to write every day.
This makes perfect sense. I accepted the challenge, and immediately formed a plan. The plan lasted one day.
I have many unfinished writing projects because I do not discipline myself. I feel tired, or sick, or just not inspired. And when I do not indulge my passion, it weakens. It leaves me discouraged.
But I will get up, brush myself off, and try again.